ive been feeling very strange lately.

i would love to go on a huge rant about how im feeling like people don't appreciate me. but since i am trapped in my own body and cant rise out of it to get a better look at the situation, i can't tell if i'm doing anything wrong. i'd like to think im a good friend, a really good friend actually, to those people i consider my REAL best friends. but i guess i'm not or something because i don't feel that they love me as much as i love them or something. i don't know, the whole thing is twisted.

i also become more and more disgusted by my body and the way i look everyday. ha what a typical girl thing to say but it's true. and i've been eating healthy and i haven't lost one god damn pound so whatever. it literally makes me want to puke. SICKSICKSICK